#33 Poem: For your wedding day

To the most beautiful bride,
Today is your special big day,
Today is when your smile is the widest,
Today is the day of your union
Union with the luckiest guy on Earth.
I cannot give you my presence
Nor I can give you any material
All I can give to you is my heart and prayers
And all the best wishes there is in this world
May your day ahead is filled with happiness and joy
May you be strong when any storms comes knocking on your doorstep
And always remember that though we were far apart
I am here for you anytime you need me
I will always love you as I did before
Congratulations on your wedding day
To my dearest best friend,
To my dearest soul sister,
I love you so much.
We all love you so much.

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This poem was written for the wedding of my bestie, Chrisa. She had her wedding in Brandon, Canada and the rest three of us were not able to attend it (due to visa application and money matter) :/

So, I talked to my other two besties, Net and Zai about writing a speech for Chrisa. My plan was to seek help from the groom's mom and ask her to deliver the speech. I was more than happy when she agreed to it \(^o^)/ 

Once again, I wish for happiness and joy in your new chapter of life. *sending virtual hugs*

Anyway, if any of you guys reading this and wanna use this for your best friend or sister's wedding, feel free to use this. :)

#32 My recent jam

Fall Out Boy - Alone Together

I don't know where you're going
But do you got room for one more troubled soul?
I don't know where I'm going but I don't think I'm coming home
And I said I'll check in tomorrow if I don't wake up dead
This is the road to ruin
And we're starting at the end

Say yeah
Let's be alone together
We could stay young forever
Scream it from the top of your lungs
Say yeah
Let's be alone together
We could stay young forever
We'll stay young, young, young, young, young.

You cut me off, I lost my track
It's not my fault, I'm a maniac
It's not funny anymore, no it's not

My heart is like a stallion
They love it more when it's broken
Do you wanna feel beautiful?
Do you wanna?

I'm outside the door, invite me in
So we can go back and play pretend
I'm on deck, yeah, I'm up next
Tonight I'm high as a private jet

'Cause I don't know where you're going
But do you got room for one more troubled soul?
I don't know where I'm going but I don't think I'm coming home
And I said I'll check in tomorrow if I don't wake up dead
This is the road to ruin
And we're starting at the end

Say yeah
Let's be alone together
We could stay young forever
Scream it from the top of your lungs
Say yeah
Let's be alone together
We could stay young forever
We'll stay young, young, young, young, young.

My heart is like a stallion
They love it more when it's broken
Do you wanna feel beautiful?
Do you wanna?

I'm outside the door, invite me in
So we can go back and play pretend
I'm on deck, yeah, I'm up next
Tonight I'm high as a private jet, yeah

Yeah
Let's be alone together
We could stay young forever
Scream it from the top of your lungs
Say yeah
Let's be alone together
We could stay young forever
We'll stay young, young, young, young, young.

I don't know where you're going
But do you got room for one more troubled soul?
I don't know where I'm going but I don't think I'm coming home
And I said I'll check in tomorrow if I don't wake up dead
This is the road to ruin
And we started at the end

Lyrics from: Here

another version of this song that I love:

#31 Poem: Diary #1

I am bleeding because of you
But you won't see the pain
That I had inside of me
Because all you can see
Is the smile on my face.

I had no idea
How to keep moving on with you
Again and again
Doubt raising up deep inside.

I am not super strong
I know you are not too
But how long can I last?
With you keep being weaker than me.

Please.. I'm begging you,
Show me your worth
Before these pain and doubts
Eats me slowly inside.

#30 Reliving the feels

The last time I actively write passionately might be when I was in my second semester (First year university). I remembered that I was writing about my transformation and change as a better person with the support and help of friends and people around me. I wasn't much of a religious person but I do feel like I need to at least know more in praying etc - something like strengthening my own spiritual soul. Since then, I could feel the difference in myself, in how I view and respond/react to things surrounding me. God knows who are those people who had helped me so much when I was almost drown in my own labyrinth. I am forever thankful for these people.

Well, that was when I'm still a freshman in university. After that, I got involved hostel committee as secretary where it took most of my university time. There's study with all the (civil) engineering subjects too. I stopped writing stories though I still dream, imagine and scribble some poems somewhere.

After graduating from university, I didn't get any proper job and I mostly stayed at home. Then, I started to write. Just something small, poems, random stories. I didn't managed to finish the story I started though because I just lost the ideas and my muse(s) back then just didn't amuse me enough.

I started back writing actively after I joined tumblr and knowing more friends because of our interest in ONE OK ROCK. Honestly, I like reading fan-fiction too but not all. I started writing more seriously after writing for Van while chatting with her in Facebook. Our crazy imaginative conversation turned to be my inspiration and thanks to the Neslo drink I had earlier that day, I spent the whole night (because I can't sleep due to the caffeine intake) writing the story The Facebook Comment. Since then I remembered I did write one short fic from request in Tumblr.

As I write more, I felt like my imaginations gone further to find inspirations. I felt happier when I am able to write. I thank God for knowing more people who inspired and supported me in this passion. There's some that share the same passion with me too. This particular girl, Qila @ Teluki is the one that made me write the most, even in SMS! She even made me write something, even short, as her bedtime stories. LOL. Because we shared the same passion.. and she herself is good in writing poems, we decided to share a blog where we can write together. I had this idea because I used to share a blog with an online friend where we will continue each other part in one story.

So, I hope if there's any reader of this blog that like to read 'homemade' poems and stories, do drop by our blog here: Lines of Words

#29 Fall out together

I seriously don't know how I can get attached with Fall Out Boy's new album 'Save Rock and Roll'. I gotta think hard to remember (or I won't have anything to post here).

*thinks hard* Maybe because of The Voice 5, in the Battleground round, two of the contestants sings 'My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark'. Yeah, I think so. LOL

Ah, then I felt like searching for new songs to play in my phone. Remembering that song, made me search for FOB. I never listened to their new album yet but I do like this band from the 'Sugar we're going down' period. To be honest, I wasn't much of a fangirl due to the fact that I am more into J-rock then.

While searching, I found the song 'Alone Together' in the list of FOB songs. My first thought was 'Oh, maybe this could be a song for me and Net together' since we're the only 2 out of 4 in our gang that haven't got married. So, I tried listening to it and I love it! Searching for the song in YouTube, I found it and it is part of the Young Blood Chronicles by FOB. That got me interested and I ended up watching from part 1 (My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark). It's creepy though.

The song 'Alone Together' gives me lots of feel. Maybe because part of what I really felt inside is in this song.

Cut me off I lost my track. It's not my fault I'm a maniac. 

It's not funny anymore, it's not. 

 My heart is a stallion. They love it when it's broken. 

And listening to 'The Phoenix', made me energized in striving forward in my study ^^ I'm gonna change my study mood like a remix and raise it like a phoenix! Woohoo!

Check out their latest Young Blood Chronicles video of 'Where Did The Party Go' here

#28 Story: 笑顔 PART 3

The Reunion

Himawari and Ryota went to their middle school reunion together but enter the hall separately. Ryota meet up with his group of friends while Himawari still walked around. Looking around while walking, Himawari accidentally knocked somebody.

“Oh, my goodness. I am so sorry!” she apologized quickly.

 “No worries. It’s okay,” a familiar voice replied. She looked up to the guy and it was Takuma. Himawari smiled.

“Wow, you are one fine lady. I shall offer you a drink. Let’s go to the banquet table,” Takuma offered. Then both of them walked to the banquet table together. From afar, Ryota silently watched the couple, feeling slightly bitter.

“So, what was your name again? I don’t remember you being in our middle school. I mean, not someone as attractive as you are,” Takuma said to Himawari. His remark on how attractive she is, made her blush.

“My…”

Before she managed to answer, few other guys and girls joined them. Himawari remembered them all, but it seems like they did not remember her at all.

“Hey, Takuma. Have you meet with the girl you rejected on the graduation day?” one of the guys asked. Takuma smirked. “Heh, I wish I had,” Takuma replied. “I wonder if she’s still in love with me – that silly fat girl,” he laughed, followed by the rest except Himawari.

‘He’s talking about me,’ she thought. She kept herself composed and calm.

“Did you guys remembered how she came and asked for Takuma’s second button on that day?” another guy asked, and more laughter in the group.

“Maybe she didn’t come today because she was so ashamed,” said a girl. “Yeah. Besides, she moved from Tokyo after the graduation day,” added another girl.

“Shizz..” Takuma hissed, his thumb moving along his lower lips. Everyone in the group turned to him. “That Kohama guy. Damn him. After I rejected that fat ugly girl, he just came and punched me after school,” Takuma murmured.

Curious, Himawari asked, “Why did he do that?”

Takuma rolled his eyes. He still feel the anger towards Ryota since that day. “Because of that fat ugly girl! Because I called her stupid, fat and ugly,” Takuma said. “They are both stupid and better off dying somewhere,” he added, in a lower voice.

Himawari heard it. Though it was said in a low voice, she heard it crystal clear. She couldn’t keep her calm any longer. She hated that guy; for judging people based on appearance, for saying such mean words to her and Ryota. She raised her handbag and swing it to Takuma’s face.

“What the…” Takuma and everyone in the group was shocked. Himawari is filled with anger that her face turned red. “Damn you all. You can call me whatever but don’t you ever! Ever! Say something like that about Ryota!” she yelled. Now, everyone in the hall turned to them.

She was about to swing her handbag to hit Takuma again, but a hand stopped her.

“Himawari, don’t. It’s not worth it,” Ryota said softly. Himawari felt like the strength she gained from her anger has gone. So, she lowered her hand.

Opposite to her, Takuma was surprised upon hearing Himawari’s name. The girl in front of him is Himawari, the one he called ‘stupid, fat and ugly’ and yet, he was praising her as if she’s a goddess a while ago.

Ryota put his arm around Himawari’s shoulder and brought her out from the hall, from the attention. Both of them walked out from the hall. While heading home in the bus, both of them were silent. But their hands were holding each other; both of Himawari’s hands were holding Ryota left hand while he put his right arm around her. 

The bus stopped at their station and the two youngsters walked down from the bus. Still holding hands, they walked together to Ryota’s house. Just as they arrived in front of the house, Himawari stopped walking. Ryota stopped and turned to Himawari. She was keeping her head down, unable to contain her tears any longer. Ryota hugged her, and let her cry all the way she wanted to.

“Please don’t cry, Hi-chan,” he said, comforting. She shook her head. “No, all those time in school. You keep telling me not to confess my feeling to him. But I stupidly insisted that he was a nice guy,” Himawari cried. 

“Please…don’t cry…”

“Be…because of me… Ryo-kun was…mocked and laughed at…” she sobbed.

“There…there… shhh,” still comforting her, Ryota gently caressed her hair. “I want to do that. I want to protect Hi-chan. Because for me… Hi-chan is a special person,” he added. Himawari stopped her sobbing and looked up at Ryota.

“What did you say…?”

Ryota blushed and scratched his head. He couldn’t look at Himawari in the eyes at first and then, took his breath and exhaled. He turned and looked at the girl in front of him. “I like you. I like you very much that I… I love you, Himawari. I don’t care if you’re fat or slim, I love you for who you are. And I love your smile the most. Because when Himawari smile, it’s like the sun shining its light to my world,” Ryota confessed.

Himawari couldn’t believe her ears. Was it real or just Ryota’s way of comforting her? Since kindergarten, the two of them were always teased as couple. Most of their friends said that Ryota is Himawari’s boyfriend because he always protected her. But she never believed it, she thought it were all just rumors. Only on this very moment she realized, Ryota always protected her – without her noticing. She smiled at him, making him blushed more. Without warning, she jumped and hugged him.

“I like Ryo-kun too! I love Ryo-kun’s smile the best as well! I love you, Kohama Ryota,” she replied finally. Her last words made Ryota smiled.

END

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#27 Story: 笑顔 PART 2

That feels.

“Ne, Hi-chan,” Ryota called, as both him and Himawari walked side by side in the city.

“Yes?” she responded. Looking down at the pavement they’re walking on, Ryota asked, “Are you still in love with Takuma-san? Or, you have a new boyfriend now?”

Himawari chuckled at Ryota’s questions. Her face slightly reddening. She quickly reacted by narrowing her eyes and turned to him. “Takuma? My goodness! That was long time ago. He rejected me on our middle school’s graduation day, remember?” she laughed and then continued, “Besides, my family is my priority now.”

He turned to her and saw her smile. The smile. Never changed. The smile that melts his heart. Feeling that his face just turned red, Ryota quickly turned. “So, anywhere else you want to send your resume to?” he asked. Changing the topic back to the main reason why they’re out in the city. Himawari checked the folder she had been holding.

“I think that is enough for today. I am getting hungrier too. Hehe,” she said. She wasn’t feeling very hungry actually, it was just that Ryota did look tired by accompanying her the whole day. After all, they went to almost 10 companies that is related to Himawari’s field of study.

“You want to eat somewhere or..?”

“Let’s go to the grocery store. I’ll cook something for you!” Himawari offered, making Ryota blushed. It has been long since she last cook for Ryota; well, before she moved, that is. She really appreciated Ryota spending his time to accompany her. For Himawari, Ryota is her precious friend.

—

While Himawari busy cooking in the kitchen, Ryota played his bass in the living room. His parents were out as usual and since his sister gotten married, she had moved and stayed with her own family. So, it was only Ryota and Himawari in the house at the moment.

Ryota was delighted when Himawari offered to cook lunch instead of eating outside. Secretly, he imagined a married life with Himawari as his wife. He shook his head to push the cheesy thought away but he could not help smiling.

“Let’s eat!” Ryota jumped from his seat and simply could not wait to enjoy his lunch.

After eating, Ryota volunteered to wash the dishes while letting Himawari to rest in the living room. She took her seat on the couch, then searching the coffee table in front of her for the TV remote control. Instead of the remote control, she saw two identical invitation letter. When she had a closer look, one of the letter is addressed to her.

Ryota joined her in the living room and sat beside her. One quick confused look from her, Ryota knew what her question was going to be. “It arrived this morning when we went outside. I picked it up when we returned home earlier,” he said. Himawari nodded. She turned back to the invitation, eyebrows raised as she read the content.

It was an invitation letter to their middle school reunion. “What a coincident!” she said, turning to Ryota. “Want to go together?” she asked, her face as bright and cheerful as the morning sun. Ryota smiled and replied, “Sure. Why not?”

“You know, Ryota. Since you have mentioned about Takuma-san earlier. It got me thinking,” Himawari murmured.

Ryota looked at Himawari, puzzled. “What do you mean?”

Smiling widely, Himawari stood up from the couch and turned around. “I’ve changed! I am no longer the fat girl like I was in middle school. Heh, I bet now that if Takuma ever see me, he’ll be the one falling in love with me then!” she beamed. Ryota smiled and nodded as Himawari took her seat back on the couch.

Deep in his heart, he felt his chest tighten. This feeling, he thought it would never come back. The feeling as if you have been weakened by some dark magic and you can only see your love one leave you.

But sitting close to him, Himawari did not realized a thing.

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#26 Story: 笑顔 PART 1

Back in the city.

Himawari turned to her side, smiled as she looked at the guy playing bass. Remembering that very moment made her heart beats faster and her face turned slightly red. As soon as the guy turned his head to her, she quickly shook her head so that he won’t see her blushing.

That guy saw her blushing face and smiled.

***

The train stopped at Azabu station, passengers entering and exiting. Himawari walked out from the train with her trolley luggage and a tote bag. She has reached Tokyo, finally. She carefully walked towards the platform exit and looked the surrounding in the station. There are skyscrapers and people walking in all directions, minding their own business.

It has been almost 2 years from the time she left this city. Her family moved to the countryside. There, her father works as fisherman while her mother works in a seafood restaurant. Now that her younger twin brothers starting middle school, the family needs more money.

Himawari is determined to get a job in the city, just as her mother has wished her to do. Her mother had told her that she can go back to the city to find job and that her mother’s best friend could help her there.

She looked into the piece of paper on her hand; there’s address and a phone number written on it. She took out her mobile phone and start dialing the number.

“Hello. Kohama resident,” a young man answered the phone. The voice sounds familiar to Himawari that she was stunned for a few seconds. “Hello,” the male voice over the phone called again.

“Ah, hello. Is Mrs Kohama there?” she quickly regained herself.

“Oh, Mom’s out to the market. Any message you want to give to her?” the young Kohama asked. “Hurm, Himawari here. I believed that my mother has told your mom that I’m going to your house?” she asked back.

“Himawari!! Yes, Mom has told me about it! Where are you now? I’ll go pick you up!” He is clearly excited about Himawari’s coming to his house. She then told him that she’s at the Azabu train station and he went out to fetch her.

—

“Welcome, welcome!” Ryota simply couldn’t hide his happiness. He helped Himawari with her luggage into the house.

By the time they arrived in the Kohama’s resident, Mrs Kohama has returned home from the market. She went to the front door to greet Himawari.

“Look at you! You’ve gotten prettier and… slimmer!” She hugged her tenderly, with motherly love. Mrs Kohama then asked Ryota to bring Himawari to the room that was prepared for her upstairs.

Himawari was very thankful that the Kohama are willing to let her stay with them before getting her own place to stay in Tokyo. After Ryota left her room, she sat on the single bed. She looked outside the window and see the house next door. The house that her family used to live. Back then, her room was exactly opposite of Ryota’s room. So it was very easy for them to communicate with each other.  They were always together too.

Inside the room next to where Himawari is, Ryota was laying down on his bed. There are moments when he’ll smile sheepishly and then stop himself. He shook his head vigorously and sat up. A heavy sigh was let out, as if he just realized the reality. He had been having crush on Himawari since middle school. They had been together since forever, since childhood. So, he thought he would never fall for her at all.

But he did. He realized that he care for her after she told him that she liked a boy in their class. He denied his feeling for her though he secretly hoped that the relationship won’t work out. Unfortunately, he didn’t had the strength to fight for his love. So he kept it for himself. Without her knowing it, he’ll protected her with all his might. Just as he did during their middle school’s graduation day.

Then, when she told him that she will be moving away, he wished he had grabbed her hand and hugged her tight. Never letting her go out of his sight. Remembering all the memories that he wished he had did more than just watching her go away, Ryota let out a heavy sigh again.

Part 2

#25 Story: 奇遇~The Unexpected Meeting PART 6

Not Alone Anymore

Miko had been listening to Taka telling her what exactly had happened last night and how he ended up there. She smiled and said, “Thank you, Taka.”

Taka turned to look at her face, slightly puzzled. She smiled again. “Thank you for being here,” she murmured. An upward curl drew on Taka’s face. “No problem,” he replied. He raised himself and sat up next to Miko on the couch. “You are most welcome,” he whispered.

Miko slapped his arms playfully. Her head did feel dizzy at times since she woke up but she ignored it because she thought it was due to her gastric. After Taka told her what happened, she finally able to remember. She was thankful that Taka stayed with her last night. She was grateful that fate brought them together. He might not feel the same way as her, but for her, Taka is a friend who stayed with her.

“Wait, so why are you sleeping with only your boxer?” Miko asked.

Taka chortled at the question. He shrugged and answered, “Well, I usually sleep naked, you know. Hehehe.”

‘Ahh, as expected of the little hentai ONE OK ROCK vocalist,’ Miko thought. As a fan, she had read few things about ONE OK ROCK members especially Taka.

“Ouch,” she squeaked. Taka has pinched her cheek. Again, she slapped Taka gently. Suddenly, Taka grabbed her hands and pulled her closer to him. Then he snuggled her warmly.

“Ne… Miko,” he called. Miko turned and looked up as it was the first time she heard him calling out her name this morning. Without waiting for her reply, Taka continued as he looked forward, “Please don’t feel alone anymore. I am here. I am here for you.”

Miko’s eyes widen in disbelief of what she had heard. Taka turned to her and looked her into the eyes. He gave her the eyes of a man that meant every single words that he had said.

“I mean it. I want to be with you. If you let me to,” he murmured sincerely. Miko bit her lower lip, and after a few moment she nodded. She was so speechless.

Taka smiled and leaned closer to her. Once again, she could feel his breath. And their lips touched. They kissed passionately with love to each other for sure this time. Tears were flowing slowly from her eyes but it were tears of joy. After they broke away from the kiss, Taka put his head on her shoulder as she leaned her head on his. They stayed in the position for few minutes, just to be thankful to be together.

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#24 Story: 奇遇~The Unexpected Meeting PART 5

What actually happened

After Miko finally calmed down, she kept apologizing to Taka for wetting his shirt with her tears. Taka smiled and said, “It’s okay.”

Earlier that night, Miko had told Taka that her flat was just around the corner. So, he suggested to walk her to the flat since she had parked the Toyota Subaru in a parking at the roadside anyway. He felt that it is better for her to rest for the night.

She eventually let out all her frustration of being alone in a foreign country, being used but unable to do anything much and also the fact that she couldn’t find her Japanese mother at all. She felt so useless but the comfort and warmth given by Taka held her strong and gave her strength to keep standing. When Taka suggested her to go back straight to her flat instead of going back to the club to fetch her friends, she just agreed and nodded to him. After all, Taka assured her that she can return the rental car the next day.

Both of them walked into the flat compound. Miko greeted the security man at the security post. It was obvious to Taka that this girl was quite familiar with the guard as she is a friendly person. To cheer her up, Taka told her stories about tour he had made across Japan. Upon hearing all the stories especially some funny ones, Miko did laughed and cheered up. Taka didn’t know why but it felt like a relief for him.

“LOOK OUT!!” the guard shouted behind them frantically. Taka quickly turned and saw something has fallen down from above. In a fast reflex, he hugged and pushed Miko to the side to avoid from the falling object. Both of them fell after the push with Taka on top of Miko.

“Miko? Miko!” Taka got himself up and raised Miko’s body. Unfortunately, even though he managed to save themselves from the falling object, Miko was knocked unconscious due to the strong falling impact. Taka felt guilty because it was due to his decision that Miko became like that. The guard came running towards the pair and checked if they’re okay. Taka told him that Miko was unconscious.

“Bring her to her flat in level 3. There’s a doctor living in the same level as her. I will call him to check on her. Thank God that at least she had no bleeding injuries,” the elderly guard said. Taka nodded and carried Miko into the flat building.

The guard came to Miko’s flat with a middle-aged man. The guard introduced him as Dr. Aikawa. As soon as they entered the room, Dr. Aikawa began checking on Miko. Taka has brought her back into her flat. His hands were shaking hard as he searched for Miko’s house keys in her bad and opened the door.

Dr. Aikawa stood up after he had done checking on Miko’s conditions. He looked at Taka and put his hand on Taka’s shoulder. “The falling impact was quite strong. And it seems like she did hit her head a bit on the floor. That’s why she is unconscious now. I have checked but there is no major injuries. To be on the safe side, bring her to check in the clinic tomorrow,” Dr. Aikawa said. Taka was relieved to hear that but he still felt guilty inside.

After the guard and Dr. Aikawa went out from the house, Taka decided to stay with Miko. Partially it was because of his guilt but another part of him just want her to be safe.

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#23 Story: 奇遇~The Unexpected Meeting PART 4

The night they spend together

Miko was sitting by herself inside the blue Toyota Subaru. The rented car was a better choice for her than the noise and hectic inside the club for her.

Suddenly, the front passenger door was opened and slammed close. Miko was taken by surprise. She turned and a young man around her age just entered the car. “Please look the door NOW,” he urged.

Panicking, Miko did as she was told. Within a few seconds, a group of screaming girls hit the car at the passenger side. Miko yelped and jumped a bit. They were screaming and chanting a name, ‘TAKA’.  She turned to the guy sitting next to her, her eyes widening.

“Morita Takahiro?” was the name that came out from her mouth. Her eyes blinked several times in disbelief.

“Er… yes?” the young man responded. “Uhm, can you help me? Drive away and go to somewhere quieter? Please?” he pled. He smiled.

‘Shit. Don’t give me that cute smile. You’re my dream guy, Morita Takahiro of ONE OK ROCK.’ Again, Miko did as she was told. She changed the car’s gear to reverse and started to drive out of the parking lot. Truth is, she had no idea where she should be heading. But she just drove anyway. The two was silence while they are still on the move. Finally, Miko pulled over to a small restaurant situated in front of a moderate height buildings. One of the buildings is Miko’s flat.

“Sorry, I heard your stomach growling. So I thought that you’re hungry,” she justified the reason why she stopped at the restaurant. She gave him some ‘please forgive me if I did wrong’ expression when he turned to look at her. Then he laughed because she was so nervous about it.

“Fair enough. I am hungry.” Both of them got out from the car and went into the restaurant.  

In the restaurant, they finally had their proper introduction of themselves to each other. While having their dinner, they enjoyed each other’s company. Though it wasn’t his initial plan to get away alone, but having Miko with him was also okay. She did admitted that she’s a fan of his band but at least she didn’t go all wild after meeting him. Besides, he had met her before even though she might not remember him back then.

After their unexpected dinner together, they cheerfully walked out from the restaurant. Taka felt relieved. He had the peace and break he needed. While walking together to the car, Taka asked, “Why were you sitting in the car alone just now?” The thought had been lingered in his head for a while. But the happy air they shared in the restaurant was too good to be ruined, in his own opinion.

Miko stopped her footsteps. She lowered her head, her lips trembling as if she was afraid of something. “My friends insisted on going to the club. I don’t like it there and I don’t want to. But if I don’t go with them, I’ll lose my only friends here. I’m afraid… I’m afraid of being lonely,” she cried, her voice was almost unheard of. But it was quite clear to Taka who stood very close to her at the roadside. To comfort her, Taka hugged her. He could feel her sobbing like a child, just with the fear of being alone.

Few months ago, Taka walked alone in a park. Nobody could recognized him as he put on his mask and hood. He walked and walked, until he spotted a bench. There was a girl reading an English novel entitled DUALED sitting on the bench. He sat down at the other end. He enjoyed the serenity in the park. Suddenly the ringtone of his phone rang, he opened and checked the incoming message. “Heh,” he said after reading the content of the message.

The girl stop reading for a moment but continued her read after that. Taka put down his phone while the message content he just received still appeared on the screen. The girl stole a peek to the phone screen and accidentally turned her head to read the content better. Taka realized it but he didn’t care at all. He just let out a heavy sigh.

“People doesn’t even know me and yet, they made critics about me. It’s so annoying,” he muttered.

The girl then turned to him. “Do you have family, friends or people around you… that would care with whatever things you are doing?” she asked in a soft voice. Taka raised his eyebrows and turned to look at the girl. For few seconds their eyes met. Then, he nodded. “I do, I guess. Yeah, the boys are quite busybody. Goto-san too. Other staffs…” he replied, one of his hand at his chin as if he’s thinking of more people.

The girl smiled at him. “That’s great then. You don’t have to be annoyed about all those people who are criticizing you. Ignore them. I mean, I might not know you well obviously. But still, why not just be happy and thankful for all the people around you. At least, you are not alone,” she said.

Behind the white mask, Taka smiled. The girl was right. Tonight, he met the same girl again by fate. And that the very moment, he understood the reason why she said ‘at least, you are not alone’ to him on that day in the park. Because the painful truth is, she is alone.

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#22 Story: 奇遇~The Unexpected Meeting PART 3

It’s coming back to her

The TV channels were frequently changed as Taka kept clicking the TV remote control. After done with the dishes and cleaning up the kitchen, Miko went to the living room. She took her seat at the left end of the couch while Taka sat at another end. His eyes followed her movement until she took her seat. To tease her, he purposely raised his eyebrows as if approving her. Annoyed, Miko decided to ignore him.

Without warning, Taka turned and put his head on Miko’s lap. Smiling sheepishly, he gave the TV remote control to her. She took it and changed the TV channel.

“So, what is it that I have to thank you about?” she asked. She could not wait any longer. She needed to know the truth or reason or whatever it is. Now facing the television, Taka just responded with a smile. But no answer. Silence.

“Mr. Morita, please.” Miko pled. Inside of her, she had been bursting with curiosity.

“Just call me Taka. I’ve told you that last night,” he murmured, still fixing his gaze to the television instead of her.

Miko let out a brief sigh. “Okay, Taka. Would you please tell me what is going on here? I am lost. I have no idea of what happened last night,” she pled again, almost crying this time. Her eyes started to be filled with tears. Taka turned to look up at her. “Please don’t cry. You’re sensitive as always,” he said, wiping the tears on her eyes.

“Promise me that if I tell you everything, you would still let me stay here… at least until tonight?” he asked.

“Promise.”

This time, it was Taka’s turn to sigh. He turned side way, and took Miko’s right hand. As he held her hand with his both hands, he said, “I met you again last night outside the club. You went there with your friends, didn’t you?”

Miko thought for a moment. Then she remembered being dragged along by her university colleagues to the club in Tokyo. “Yes. I don’t want to go at all. I don’t like it. But if I don’t follow them, they won’t be my friends anymore. I have no friends in Tokyo,” she murmured.

Miko was a post-graduate student by scholarship in one of the university in Japan. She made a choice to go to Japan to find her Japanese mother, who left her and her father to come back to Japan. So, she came to Japan alone and she had no friend at all. Then she met few students who were also the students of her supervisor. They became her friends but she never really like the activities that they do like clubbing and drinking every night. As for her so-called friends, they only liked her because she knows how to drive a car. Last night, her friends decided to go to a famous club in Tokyo. Miko made excuses and managed to stay in the car while her friends entered the club. On that same fateful night, Taka happened to be in the club with his friends.

“I felt like I just have to get away from there,” Taka said. He was gently caressing Miko’s hand. He could felt Miko’s left hand running through his dark black hair and it seemed like she didn’t even realized that she was doing that. Taka then added, “There was this one foreign girl there. She kept bugging me, to the point that I can’t even enjoy the night with my buddies. Don’t get me wrong, I love my fans. All of them. But I do need some private time too, you know.”

Miko nodded, listening to Taka obediently. “Then?” she asked. She wanted to know more.

“So, I excused myself and walked out from the VIP room. Then, straight out from the club. Unfortunately, some girls spotted me and a group of fan girls screaming and running towards me. Maybe it’s my guts, I don’t know what to do and I just ran. That’s when I saw you in the car,” he continued.

As if her memories came back to her, Miko finally remembered what happened last night outside the club. She might not be able to remember it earlier because of her shock, seeing Taka in her flat. Sleeping, almost naked. With only tight black boxer. Well, who wouldn’t be shocked at that when the guy is your dream guy?

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#21 Story: 奇遇~The Unexpected Meeting PART 2

Thank You

Taka went into the kitchen to join Miko. He went to the fridge and took out few cooking ingredients. “What are you doing?” Miko asked. Coolly, Taka responded, “Cooking. It is good to have a good and filling breakfast in the morning, you know.”

Speechless. Miko just looked at Taka walking around the kitchen as if he was familiar enough with the flat.

“Don’t worry, I’m good in cooking. I’ll cooking something good for you,” he murmured as his hands were in actions. Miko couldn’t stop him at all; he’s so cute when he’s focus in something. Miko seen it few times in the band’s videos shared online. Now that he is all 3D and real in front of her, her body just felt numb. The only thing she could do was to walk and check her fridge. A louder gasp was let out by her, a mixture of shock and angst. The cooking ingredients that Taka took were actually Miko’s one week food supply. Since she’s living alone, she had to consider her weekly budget too.

She quickly turned to Taka and run towards him. She grabbed his hands to stop him. Taka turned down his head towards her.

“Don’t…”

“This is the last one, so it should just go into the pot,” Taka said. He overpowered the panting Miko to put the last slices of tofu into the miso soup he had been cooking. The last tofu went into the boiling po, adding nice flavor to the miso. But to Miko, it was a misery. Admitting defeat, she let go of Taka’s hands.

Taka was eating his breakfast with full interest. However, Miko was only half interest with the food. She was more curious on whatever reason was that Taka ended up in her flat. Because part of her was annoyed with his brat side. Especially after what had happened during the breakfast preparation.

“I’m done! Thanks for the food,” Taka said as he put down his bowl and chopsticks. He turned left and right and then to the front, looking at Miko.

Miko, on the other hand, kept her head lower as she slower ate her breakfast. After realizing that Taka was looking at her, she just replied, “That was my one week supply of food you’ve cooked and eaten.”

Though her glaring was supposed to be out of anger, it made Taka chuckled. He tried hiding his amusement but his shaking shoulders wouldn’t do the trick. Annoyed, Miko turned her face away from him and pouted.

“I’ll pay you back for all the food, okay?” Taka said, not wanting Miko to be mad anymore. “Never mind,” she replied, silently finishing her breakfast.

Suddenly, without Miko realizing it, Taka reached out his hand and pinched her cheek. “You’re so cute,” he teased. Miko slapped his hand off.

“You haven’t say your thank you to me yet,” Taka said, making Miko puzzled. Then she realized she really hasn’t remembered anything from last night. But before she could ask Taka about what happened, he already stood up and took his dishes to the sink. Miko quickly stood up and brought her and the remaining dishes to the sink as well. “I’ll wash it,” she said. Taka moved to the side to give way to her. 

While Miko washed all the dishes, Taka was standing nearby, watching her. She quietly stole few glances of him without turning her head. She didn’t want Taka to know that she was actually looking at him. ‘Thank you’, she thought. ‘But for what?’, again, she could not recall anything at all. Everything was so blurry to her.

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#20 Story: 奇遇~The Unexpected Meeting PART 1

Wake Up

The beautiful sun was shining on Saturday. Birds chirping and singing songs only they knew. Inside a small flat house, a girl named Miko was laying down sleeping to her right side on her purplish bed. She opened her eyes slowly from her sound sleep. It was just like another Saturday morning, with the sun light and the birds’ songs. At least, that was what she thought it would be before she saw the sleeping face in front of her.

The black curly hair, flawless Asian face with moles below the eyes. And the little, as if teasing, goatee below that beautiful lips. Miko blinked her eyes several times. She turned away and then back to the sleeping beauty. Trembling, she slowly moved her left hand and gently tried to touch the cheek with the moles. As soon as their skin touched, she withdrew her hand and gasped silently.

‘He’s real!’ she exclaimed inside of her head.

‘How could it be? What happened last night?’ she asked herself. Thinking too much in the early morning hurt her head so she stopped. She calmed herself and sat up for few seconds before walking to the toilet in her room.

She washed her face few times more than usual. Brushing her teeth while looking at the mirror, she kept saying that it was all a dream. He will be gone from her bed as soon as she walked back to the room. Done refreshing up herself – much wide awake this time, she opened the toilet’s door.

Yawning and scratching his head, the figure she thought would disappeared stood in front of her. Awake. Unable to give any reaction, she squealed.

“Good morning!” he greeted, smiling.

“Good morning…,” she answered reluctantly. After few moments, she managed to move her head and looked at the guy from head to toe. She couldn’t hide her surprise when she realized that he was only wearing his tight boxer. Every emotions ran into her cells, mixing and exploding. This guy is Taka, the vocalist of her favorite rock band. The guy that was actually her bias among the band members.

“Your face is red,” Taka said, almost teasing as he moved his face closer to hers.

Miko took a few step back. “Er.. I guess you want to use the toilet? I’ll get out now then,” her cheeks reddening as she quickly walked out of the toilet to let Taka used it.

Miko sat down at the edge of her queen size purple bed. Train of thoughts had been running around her head. She wanted to ask Taka exactly how did he ended up sleeping in her room, what has happened last night, did she do anything embarrassing and so much more. But her heart was in a different opinion with her brain. She likes this guy, very much. To the fan girl level of loving him, if it is possible by all means. What if the moment after she asked all those questions, he’ll just go away from her… forever?

“No. I don’t want that,” she muttered. Taka was already standing next to her and asked, “Want what?”

No doubt that his voice made her surprised and jumped, almost falling off the bed. Taka quickly grab Miko by her waist but he almost lost his balance too. So, he pulled himself and her harder backwards and both ended up laying on the bed. Their eyes met, a lost connection felt like reconnected straight away. Miko kept telling herself to look away but she could not do so. She felt weak against the guy of her dream. She felt captured and trapped in her love for him. Then, he smiled. Without warning, he drew closer to her. Miko, still stoned in her position, could feel the rhythm of his breath. She felt like she needed to move, but her body would not listen to any of her command, as if they’re paralyzed by his spell. At that moment, their lips touched. Unwilling at first, Miko finally surrendered and return the kiss.

After a few seconds, Miko gained her strength and broke away from the kiss. She quickly covered her mouth with her hands. Confused at first, Taka kept his cool with his smile. “I think you cannot refuse of not wanting that,” he said, teasing. His smile turned to be a naughty one.

Feeling agitated, Miko turned and got up from the bed. “I’ll see what I can prepare for breakfast,” she murmured. As she walked out to the kitchen, Taka also got himself out of the bed and put on his long pants. “Ah, maybe I should wear loose boxer instead next time?” he muttered. As part of his naughty nature, he couldn’t help but to giggle especially as he remembered the redness shown on Miko’s face.

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#19: Updates!

Heyyyyyy ya... all!! 

I am currently working on a story entitled "奇遇" (pronounce as: Kiguu) which means the unexpected meeting in English. 

I completed a story with the same title back when I was 16~17 years old. But I did that in a script-style. 

However, this time I am writing it as a fan fiction (fanfic) for Taka and it was an inspiration from a fan art made by Hyori, my Tumblr friend from Poland.

I had been working on it since last night after I managed to finished my conference paper. Hopefully I can finish it by tonight because I have to pack for my flight tomorrow. Hehehe. 

Here is the preview of the story at work :D

The illustration shown was Hyori's fan art of Taka.

#18 Poem: Get up, myself

Through all the negativity
Spits right on to my face
I cowardly withdraw
To the corner of despair.

I thought I was defeated
I thought I was lost
Never in my life
I have ever been so wrong.

I gather my courage
Shed the dried tears on my face
Taking a deep breath and letting go
I force myself to stand up.

No, I don't have to look up
This is not a drama
This is my own life
Looking forward ahead is what I've gotta do.

Say whatever you wanna say
I'll take the good
And ignoring the bad
I am walking on my own path.

I might be slow but it is okay
I will speed up when I need to
But I am going forward
To the unknown future.

But I am not scared anymore
Because I believe in me
And people who loved and support me
For who I truly am.

14th August 2013.

#17 Poem: The Lost Cry

Seemingly unbreakable

The wall building up

Is brittle and hollow.

It fills with nothingness.

Deep inside the hollowness

There is a soul that was lost

Trying to find its way out

But darkness blinded it off

Loneliness and emptiness

Became the loyal company

As well as tear drops.

And a secret wish no one heard.

“Take me out; save me.”

If only there is anyone care enough

To hear the lost cry.